Here is the place where I find myself open and restitute and bizarre

Where I could not tell you my name or how to walk up the stairs

Or waltz up the stairs because they are gone

and so is the shadow they left in my aching mind and body

My body does not tell me anything

All I know is the weariness and the aching of my head

When I guess that I am hungry but cannot feel it

I am numb and it is alluring,

Empowering but I cannot endure it

It leaves me alone so often and I come to days like these

When it’s three and I haven’t eaten much at all

and it feels like three in the morning because my eyes are so heavy

and so I drink more water and try to sleep

Because I would rather sleep than eat.


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